Can’t believe 2011 is already here. Every day is just another step closer. I can’t compare myself to my peers anymore, just gotta do me. We all work hard and accomplish things in our own ways and time. No matter how long or rough the journey, I’m glad to say that I’m still going to get there.

It’s too funny how things changed with you. One minute, you’re laughing and agreeing on the same shit with me. The next, you’ve become the person I laugh about. Of course they say that change is good, keeps things constant. I just kind of want to forget you, you and you over there. 

Just taking a break from studying..

I have to give props to the best man in my life. Dad. It’s been such a bumpy road for us. But after the storm comes the sunshine. And you have definitely been the sunshine helping me grow. You and I both knew how hard it was to grow up without my mother, but we did it. Everything you’ve done for me, I’m still learning to appreciate it all. Putting me through the best education that money could buy was not easy. Raising me all by yourself was not easy (with the help of Grandma & Grandpa of course). You are independent, strong, and just a little stubborn. Just like me. You are also caring, open, and headstrong. Without words, you’ve shown me how to keep striving. Succeeding at everything was never the goal. The goal was to try and keep going. Every time I think of us, I can only cry for some reason. Tears of joy and sadness. I’m so proud to be your daughter. Deep down, I’m probably the only one who knows how that feels. I’m sad that our lives our separate. Sometimes, I tell people that “We get along better not living together than we do living together.” I’m sad that it has had to resort to that, but one day we’re going to work it out. People may not see it, but I have come such a long way from just 3 years ago. I’m just like you. Wouldn’t have it any other way.

I’ve never really imagined myself alone. If there is such a thing as Only Child Syndrome, then I must have it. The theory is that only children tend to be more social and extroverted. I don’t know if I have a fear of being alone, but I’ve never really had the chance to experience it. A good friend of mine read me so well the other day. Amongst other things, he told me that I’ve never really been alone. That I’m always searching for companionship, whether it be friends or boyfriends. And it’s because I am an only child. I always judged the people who did things alone wondering how they could do it. Now I’ve come to appreciate some me time. My life is a bit crazy. But who’s isn’t? Who am I to judge others? I gotta do me, as they say. I’m thankful for the people that fill my void. My life can’t be compromised, even if I’m flying solo.